A more personal, ranty post
I really vented a lot to my supervisor tonight after work. I've known Steve since I was a supervisor there, and now he's my supervisor. He's always been a good ear for me. Our philosophies really mesh.
I'm just so tired of feeling like I'm scoffed at because I do the things others won't do. I'm always the one roaming the hallway monitoring the kids while everybody else is watching tv and socializing. I'm not there to socialize, I'm there to work.
I'm also tired of always having to pick up the pieces when a young, inexperienced staff member sets a kid off, or when a staff member makes a snide remark to a kid they don't like. I'm so tired of seeing certain kids (who just don't happen to kiss ass good enough to win staff over) be derided and scapegoated while kids who are consistently out of control, aggressive, or oppositional are simply adored by the same staff. I'm tired of seeing some kids con and manipulate staff even while getting away with all kinds of crap, while other kids are written off because they just get angrier when staff won't just allow them to get alone and cool off.
I'm tired of going above and beyond the call of duty and doing things that prevent situations from arising, only to see others get the glory and recognition for the unit running smoothly. I don't need much--just a simple recognition that what I do matters.
See, others put out fires. I do everything I can to prevent them from erupting. Sure, I could sit on my ass all day watching tv, monitoring the hallway from the chair. That's not enough. Just because a kid's not coming out and going into another kid's room (which could still happen just by watching from the couch), doesn't mean all is well. Room time is when kids plot with others through bedroom walls, when some kids make sexual propositions to others, when some kids instigate others quietly to act out (while not acting out and getting in trouble themselves.) I'm the one up in the hallway, the one interacting with the kids, opening their room doors to check on them, talking to them if they're getting upset during quiet time.
Thank God for a supervisor like Steve who understands and lets me vent.
I'm just so tired of feeling like I'm scoffed at because I do the things others won't do. I'm always the one roaming the hallway monitoring the kids while everybody else is watching tv and socializing. I'm not there to socialize, I'm there to work.
I'm also tired of always having to pick up the pieces when a young, inexperienced staff member sets a kid off, or when a staff member makes a snide remark to a kid they don't like. I'm so tired of seeing certain kids (who just don't happen to kiss ass good enough to win staff over) be derided and scapegoated while kids who are consistently out of control, aggressive, or oppositional are simply adored by the same staff. I'm tired of seeing some kids con and manipulate staff even while getting away with all kinds of crap, while other kids are written off because they just get angrier when staff won't just allow them to get alone and cool off.
I'm tired of going above and beyond the call of duty and doing things that prevent situations from arising, only to see others get the glory and recognition for the unit running smoothly. I don't need much--just a simple recognition that what I do matters.
See, others put out fires. I do everything I can to prevent them from erupting. Sure, I could sit on my ass all day watching tv, monitoring the hallway from the chair. That's not enough. Just because a kid's not coming out and going into another kid's room (which could still happen just by watching from the couch), doesn't mean all is well. Room time is when kids plot with others through bedroom walls, when some kids make sexual propositions to others, when some kids instigate others quietly to act out (while not acting out and getting in trouble themselves.) I'm the one up in the hallway, the one interacting with the kids, opening their room doors to check on them, talking to them if they're getting upset during quiet time.
Thank God for a supervisor like Steve who understands and lets me vent.
posted by Unknown at 11:02 PM
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